This last weekend was the kids' first weekend with their dad. (He sees them often, but never had them overnights or for a weekend yet.) Rather than have them all find some hotel(s) to stay, we opted for me to leave for a quick trip away and let the kids stay in their house. I took the two oldest at home kids (Caroline and Abigail) and left for Las Vegas for the weekend. I LOVE Vegas trips. We got to see Phantom of the Opera at the Venetian (something I'd promised Caroline for her high school graduation trip 2yrs ago, but then ran out of fundage for). Showed Caroline the weird intrigue that is the wax museum. Met some truly great people - no joke - I don't believe they were coincidences - the life lessons I was able to glean were truly needed just right now, that weekend, in my life. Best of all....the fountains at the Bellagio. I don't know why, really - but I get teary eyed every time I see them...aside from watching a human birth, watching the fountains is my all time favorite thing to see!!
Steve and the kids did great. I still have a harrrrrdddddddd time processing that he wants to continue forward with separate parenting, separate lives. It goes against every thing I've ever wanted, every thing I've ever believed. But, this is what he wants and he's moving on. So, it's perhaps a couple years past time that I really find a way to figure this out. I'm working on it. Hard, hard, hard. But, I'm trying.... If I could swing the funds, I might try another weekend in Las Vegas to see if that helped. :-)
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Glad you and your girls had a fun weekend in Vegas, and that everyone did well at home. Praying for you!!
I feel for you. I haven't been through it. But I find break ups without kids hard enough (well, only really had one biggy and sort of having my second one now). Sending my best thoughts to you from the other side of the world. Must be so hard.
I am glad you had a good time in vegas. But my heart goes out to you. I know how hard it is. You feel lost, you feel like a part of you is missing. But eventually it does get better and you do find a way to move on. It takes awhile though. You are in my prayers......(((HUGS)))
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